Pneity

No, this isn't an 8th level Sorcerer D&D spell (Or was it 9th...?). Weird day, rather. Rather uneventful day. Productive day at school, if a boring day at school. Mr. C let us out early and I went back to the dorms and downloaded the Duck Hunt torrent at ocremix.org. It rocks. After a while, I got my stuff together, and feel asleep playing Gunstar Heroes, waiting for a call from my sister or mom telling me they were going to get me. Around 4 PM, I got that call, woke up, finished getting my stuff together, said goodbyes to Chris and Don, left. Interesting conversation with my sister and Sabrina about the Schavio girl and the failing health of the Pope. Got back and spent the evening with Sabrina. I found out during the week, the basement got flooded with our septic backup. Took a lot of work to get to work again, and the cleanup procedures were pretty extreme. My mom rearranged my room while she was at it. Works for me, I guess. I'm never here anymore ever. That still bothers me. I want to be here. Instead of straight up sadness, I feel a sort of emptiness that something I once had is no longer there. On a lighter note, Kelly agreed to go to prom with Todd. Haha, that'll be interesting. And very fun. I look forward to that. I'm still not sure if I'll be going to Tekkoshokon next weekend. I don't want to waste my money on it, but it could be so fun. I just want to be with people, especially that many people, with the same interests as me. Which is a rare thing locally, but Tekkoshokon is a lot more largescale, making it nice. And now tomorrow, I go to Pittsburgh with Sabrina.

When I woke up this morning, I was having weird feelings about going to Pittsburgh to direct Sabrina and her family to Bradford, so I decided not to go. With that decision came a great amount of sadness that I was letting her down. After I called her, I ate some breakfast and watched some Fear Factor for some strange reason. I went downstairs to sleep some more around noon, put on the Duck Hunt remix project and a few minutes into my sleep, Sabrina called again. She was pretty upset. Her dog, Rex, got hit by a car. She asked me about any local vets to help him, she said he was in pretty bad shape. On the phone, I could hear her crying and Rex panting heavily. Inactivity racing, I couldn't do anything to help her. I didn't know what to do, and was pacing wondering what I could possibly do. Lucky for us, she called again and asked if I could go anyway. I couldn't say no, so I went. If only to comfort her. I didn't even shower, I just went in the clothes I wore the night before and slept in. My mom took me over there, and Rex seemed to be doing better, but was still panting heavily. We went shortly after. They took care of tĂeir business, and I walked around the mall with Kenny, her mom's boyfriend. It was relieving talking to him in a way. I always figured he thought down of me. Not really because he showed it, but because I'm paranoid. A strange anectote was when we went to get Sabrina's glasses from the car, in the parking garage, we could smell pot really strongly. He was looking around, confused, and I watched him carefully to see if he noticed it. He did. He said "it smelled like dope back there." I just said, "oh, that's what that was." Blarg. I talked to a boy and his mom touring the school about the program I'm in. I hope I did that well. I'm always paranoid talking to people I don't know. Afterwards, we all ate at Houlihan's and I found out I was right. Their food kicks some serious butt. Anyway, we went back to Sabrina's house and Rex seemed a lot better, but seemed to be in a lot of pain still. Poor puppy. Bad things always happen to the best people, I swear. Sabrina changed clothes and we went back to my house for the night. We had a nice night, but now she's gone. So now, I'm desparately alone again, listening to the song "Lonely" by some rap dude. God, this song is put together well. It's a really cute song. I think ever year, one rap song comes out that I fall in love with. Go rap guys. Sleepy now. Good night.

On second thought, heartburn sucks. Oh, and happy Daylight Savings Time.

Talk about a day I wish didn't happen. Yesterday, I woke up early and went to my Aunt Karen's house to fix her computer. Which I couldn't do. Then I went to see my grandma and other aunt. It was nice, but we didn't spend any time there, because my mom had to go to work, and I had to get back to see Sabrina. We got home, and I saw Sabrina for a few hours. During those few hours, it snowed a few inches, the sun came out and melted the snow. It was pretty unbelieveable. Anyway, tough goodbyes, as usual, and I came back to school. I had to get my Visio project done for today, but instead, I went to sleep. Oh, but before that, I got K-lined from FFChat. So much for 4+ years of EoFF Chat, eh? Fuckin' administration. I swear, if you don't suck an admin's dick, you get banned from most internet things. I hate that so much. I never liked that server, but I tolerated it because that was where EoFF was. I couldn't have changed that. But now, it's too late. Thanks, EoFF. You're times were wonderful, but now they're through. Anyway, I didn't get enough sleep, though I slept 10 hours. I have to do my Visio project today. I'm so screwed. I hate this crap. And sadly enough, it's all my own fault for not doing it sooner.

I didn't finish my Visio budget. I didn't even start it. Now the whole project is due next Wednesday. Mr. C locked down the network, because he caught on to our filesharing system. I think our class may be in deep crap because of that. But I'm not sweating it. I haven't done any work at all, let alone steal anyone's work from that system. Heh. Yesterday was pretty stressful, and I ended up getting a headache. Got home, played some DDR, and... um... fell asleep? Yesterday sucked hard. And today isn't looking up, either. We're going to be yelled at for all the hacking certain members of our class keep doing to the school's network. Some time soon, I'll be doing something that brings me real joy. Heh. Tekkoshocon looks fun right now, but I'm pretty hellbent on not going now. Seems like a bit of a waste. I needn't waste my time and money on something this weekend. I dunno. Whatever. Anyway, off to school I go. Yay?

Two things interesting happened yesterday. I gave up on my laptop's power adapter and I can't take it to school anymore. So much for that 5 weeks€‚ worth of work I need to make up. This could get tricky. I'm so damn worried about this crap it's making me sick now. Great. Last night was nicer, however. John and I went to one of the Duquesne buildings to play pool. They have a really nice lounge area. I should have gone to a real school. I guess when and if I graduate from here isn't too late, is it? Oh, well. Running late to school today. Got to go.

I finished my budget today. School was boring today, as we didn't really do much. Well, except listen to people relate their mothers to deli meats. Eew. Database ER Diagrams in Unicode ASCII art style is very fun, I found out. I broke two computers in lab 114 today. Go me. All I had to do was touch them. One of them, the mouse (mice in this case) didn't work, even through USB. The other one couldn't find the network, even though all connections were solid. Anyway, I finished my budget for the Visio project, and it owned. I bought two $44,000 servers in the project. I wish I could try one of those machines out. God, that would be the coolest thing anyone has ever experienced in all lives total ever. I'm envious of anyone with that sort of technology available to them. Anyway, after school, I played DDR, got a B on 321 Stars Heavy, my second favorite song on DDR. The second round through, I had an unbelieveable pinching pain in the front of my upper thigh. Needless to say, I barely finished the song after the second time. The walk back sucked, as it kept happening. I wish I could have enjoyed the beautiful day, but with a randomly appearing pain screws with that, in general, at least. To compound my anger, someone spit on the button to the elevator on the Recieving level of Brottier hall. I would have thought with all these snobby Duquesne students around, they'd all be a little bit above pranks like that. I got back, and slept a while. When I woke up, I got to work on my DHCP Powerpoint presentation. That wasn't too fun, but I got through it. About half way through, my laptop's power adapter crapped out again without my knowledge, and the battery dropped to 8% now. I hate this thing so much. I went emo on my desk, threw my mouse and keyboard across the room. I left the room angry, and went for a 11PM walk through Duquesne campus when I realized something. Duquesne is a beautiful place when the weather is nice. I can't wait for some more nice weather now. Oh, well. Sleepy time now. I'm glad I don't have to stay up all night doing this Powerpoint thing.

I overslept this morning. By about 4 hours. Chris's phone call woke me up, and I made it to school just in time for Networking Basics class. I put the finishing touches on my DHCP presentation on the smart board during lunch. I tell you, I'm a curse. I've broken the smart board twice so far. Today wasn't an exception, as it took nearly a half hour to restart the machine right. I got a 99/100 on it because I got lost half way through, and lost my focus. The other group got an 88, so I'm pleased. Got back to the dorms, walked around Duquesne again. I found a nice spot to sit and think. It's the cliff overlooking the Monongahela river and the South Side of PittĂburgh. It's relaxing up there, but staring at people in the Allegheny Jail playing Basketball is a bit dismal. Walking through Duquesne gives me the strangest feelings, and it's an interesting time to think for me. Seeing everyone there just makes me want to belong to something all the more. I realized that of the people I know from school, and here at the dorms, the extent of similarities between these people and me is that we like computers. I'm a lot more deep than that. In this respect, I wish I had gone to a normal school. A school where there are a lot of people, and a lot of people with interests like mine. I envy these people who belong, and are happy with those around them. Perhaps I'm just being a bit to emo here, but damn. It would be nice, I think. I need to start talking to Mike again or something, I should get involved over at Pitt or something. I hope they'd welcome me. But this Summer could get boring. All the college students will be gone, Duquesne campus will be a pretty boring looking place, I can imagine. The buzz surrounding the place will be gone. I don't look forward to that. The biggest thing weighing on my mind would be what I want to do after I'm out of Bradford. All this thinking has made me want to go to a real school, but I want to get out and start my life soon. I don't want to be broke all my life because of school, but I enjoy learning. Meh. I need to think more. I'll get back to you on this one.

Wow... I must be really tired. Moxy Früvous's Independence Day is pwning me like crazy right now. I guess that's what I get for not sleeping well, and waking up at 2 AM.

Don't be concerned by that title. I just played Mortal Kombat 2 today, so it's ok. Heh, the lack of an entry yesterday describes exactly how my day was. Rather eventless. My mom picked me up from Pittsburgh, and I feel asleep with Sabrina. Heh. Back to today, I woke up early and made the final decision not to go to Tekkoshocon due to financial reasons again. It's too damn expensive to go to that crap. Franklin woke me up first thing this morning at 11:30. He wanted to know if I was going to Tekkoshocon and if I needed a ride. Nice of him to think of me, but I told him I wasn't going for 'various reasons.' I didn't have the heart to tell him that I'm a cheap/poor bastard. I ate a banana (wow) and went outside and threw a knife into the ground for a while, waiting for Sabrina to arrive for the day. She did around 1:30 PM and was looking so... happy. She was wearing a really bright outfit, making the nice morning and nice weather all the nicer. We had a nice day, spending part of it by the creek across the road from my house. It was great talking to her in such a peaceful, warm, happy environment. I wish for more of that. Let's hope the rest of this Spring turns out as nice as today. Sucks that I have to go back to school again tomorrow. I've got a real week of work ahead of me, with a 4 week project plus all my other school work. Flarg. My mom went to Brownfield school to sing with the family while Sabrina and I took Kelly to see Todd, since they're going to prom together now. Haha. They seemed to hit it off the best that Kelly could hit it off with... well... anyone. Heh. I hope that the two hours we sat at my aunt's house didn't bother her that much. I can't read her very well. Makes dealing with her difficult.

Sorry once again for the lack of updates. I've hit a pretty boring part of the month. Nothing of much interest has happened. I'm back at school now. Today, Mr. C told us he'd be out for the rest of the week. He left a bunch of work, and I need to finish a few backed up projects. Anyway, I didn't do anything today because I was waiting for Hobson to wake up so I could get some data off of him. He didn't, so I'm going to sleep. I'll do it in school tomorrow. Chris is letting me borrow his thumb drive. Nice guy, eh? Anyway, I need to get on top of things. Not having my laptop in school is a major hinderance, especially when you have 5 weeks of backed up work to do. I anxiously await this all to be behind me. I really enjoyed my brisk walk through Duquesne tonight. The weather is still beautifully perfect. I hope it keeps up. I love it.

This week is screwing with me. It's going on Wednesday now. I've slept all day. I'm so disoriented. I'm going to skip school tomorrow. We have our assignments, so I know what needs done. It's just a matter of doing it now. Visio project, final version, as well as any extraneous work that needs done. I'll get more done here at home than I would at school. I wish the administration would realize that, but I don't expect them to. Oh, well, I say. Was a boring day, other than that. I got Module 3 of my Microsoft Integration project complete, which is probably going to be my hardest section, as the all important "Marketing Leader" or some bullcrap like that. This project sucks. I'm up to my ears in work, and I'm procrastinating again. Hurray. DDR music sure is nice. I wish I had some people to play DDR with, though. It's boring at the arcade because nobody cares anymore, and it's boring at home becasue there's nothing new, and it's boring on my laptop because the pads don't work! Anyway... sausage sandwich is about to be eaten, then I'll probably get some more sleep. I have half a headache. I feel pretty worthless missing school tomorrow, but then I think of all those people who miss whole weeks and they still pass. I guess I'm doing well. Once I get this work behind me, I'll feel better again. Hey, at least the weather is nice, eh? Chris found a country/bluegrass version of "Gin and Juice" earlier. It's really funny, and kept me entertained for a while there. I say, thank god for filesharing. You keep my sanity. I want my own website so bad. All I'm asking for is unlimited bandwidth at a decent speed. Apparently the internet nazis think that's some impossible goal unless you have hundreds of dollars to throw at it at very short intervals. From the looks of it, such a system would cost me enough to buy a few houses in just a few years. Not worth the internet in that case. I'll have a family to support and whatnot. I'm feelĂng ill. A bit of a stomach ache, a bit of a headache, and I'm very tired despite the sleep I just got. All freaking day. I'm not so much hungry, as I ate a few hours ago, and I'll be eating again here soon, but with an upset stomach, that can't be good. I keep thinking of Mr. C's situation, and it must be pretty rough. Bleh... anyway... I'll quit talking now and go get that sausage or something. And maybe get some more sleep. And maybe just enjoy my day off tomorrow. ;_;

Aargh. Next time I wait years for a CD to be released and it sucks, I'm going to flip out and kill someone. I'm listening to the Gorillaz newest CD, released recently, and it's not near as good as the last one. It's about as much of a disappointment as that Daft Punk album. Anyway, back to the day. I didn't go to school. I had a nice day, waking up at 12:30 PM. I woke up, browsed the 'net for a while, ate a bit, and started cleaning the apartment. About half way through, I decided to rearrange my stuff. I moved things around and now, my bed is between my computer stand and the window. Let's hope I like this setup more than I anticipate. Chris thinks I'm half retarded now, no doubt. I started work on my Visio project just in time for me to give up. What a bunch of crap that project is. After giving up, I took a shower. During the shower, I guess I got myself so worked up, I got a nosebleed. I finished up, got dressed, just in time to realize that Comcast crapped out again, and the DNS server was down. No internet for us. While troubleshooting that, Heather, who's network I administrate, informed me that someone was on their network. I went down, removed the DHCP entry, blocked his/her MAC address from the network, and prayed for the best. I can only hope that works well enough to keep them out again. I have a bad suspicion I'll be back down there tomorrow fixing it again. I'm so stressed out. I could fix it by doing my work, but, as usual, I don't want to. Once time runs out, I'll be on top of things. It's 1 AM now, and Chris is still up, and Kim is here playing Resident Evil 4. She likes that game or something. I'm not going to school tomorrow, but they are. They shouldn't be up. And neither should I. Mr. C's mother is still alive, and he may return to school. I almost don't want to risk missing school while he's there. I'm so torn. Aargh. I'm feeling too emo tonight.

I slept in this morning. Woke up around 10 AM with a message from Pat at school saying Mr. C was in school today, and angry that nobody did their network project. "How messy of me," I thought. Little did I know, he was being a douchebag. The project's deadline was extended until tomorrow, and tomorrow, I'll finish it up and turn it in. Simple as that. I spent most of today fixing people's computers and networks. When I wasn't doing that, I was sitting around being a waste of life and starving. Heh, I was waiting for Chris to wake up and fry some bacon for dinner, but he didn't. I lacked motivation to make other food, since he was obviously intent on sleeping the afternoon away. He finally woke up around 10PM, and I gorged on bacon and hamburger, and diabetic potatoes mmm tasty. If only I had thought sooner about how much I ate. I want more milk, but I could never fit it, I ate too much. Chris is playing Resident Evil 4 tonight. Yay for him. I need to get a hard drive... and soon. Spring is here, I need to spring clean my computer, but I have no space to do so. I emailed jmtb02, the flash movie/game guy who did the color series. His flash movies impressed me so much, I had to at least send him word of what a joy his animations brought me. He seems like a nice guy from what I could read on his website, so I figured he might appreciate some feedback. In retrospect, I feel like a loudmouth fanboy. Hobson called me a fanboy today, and it got me to thinking about my clingy personality to the things that I like. It's almost like I'm a stalker when it comes to people, and it's almost like an obsession when it comes to objects. I guess I am a bit of a fanboy. I guess I'm just adamant about what I like, even if I have little reason to like something over another. Chad wants to hang out on Sunday morning, which isn't a problem for me, except that Anthony will be there and I'll be the third wheel, since they're such great buddies these days. I hate Anthony for so many reasons. It almost makes me hate Chad, but there's that old friendship there and a four year bond of close friendship between us that I can't just throw away like he did with certain other people. Speaking of, I'm excited for prom. It'll be a lot of fun. I downloaded a CD at the recommendation of Hobson, and it turned out for the best. The Postal Service, while borderline emo, has a nice light, pretty sound without being completely flighty. The song Such Great Heights hasn't left my playlist much today, as it was on repeat for most of it. I originally downloaded it as repentance for Hobson donating his Visio floor plan to me. Well... there was my day. I hope this next week turns out ok. So far, I think I've been too lucky. 501 words seemed so much bigger when I was in seventh grade.

Tonight, I argued with Todd, Rachel and some others about why setting up my aunt's computer was more important to me than Sabrina. Will somebody please fucking shoot me in the face!? God, what a worthless, piece of crap day. Started out bad, Nate came to our door this morning, waking me up early. Got to school, removed the kinks from my Visio layout with Hobson and finished up Module 4 of the Microsoft Integration project. Got back to the dorms early, sister AIMs me about why I'm home so early. I told her why, and she came and got me. On the way back, I found out that Sabrina wasn't home yet. Turns out, she went to see a movie with one of my favorite people in the whole world. Yes, that's sarcasm. I can't be upset at her for it, though. I got home, played some DDR, hung out a bit with my dad. I passed out on the couch around 7 PM waiting for a call from Sabrina. I ended up sleeping an hour, and my sister left with her boyfriend while I was asleep. This created a problem of me getting to my aunt Pat's house, since she needed me to put together her new computer. Great. Once Sabrina finally called around 8, I asked if she'd like to go to my aunt's with me, and she agreed. She arrived around 9PM, and I called my aunt's house to see about a ride there. She got my aunt Karen to ride us. I was in such a weird mood when Sabrina first arrived. I had nothing to say, but I was so glad Sabrina was there. As usual, I have no words for what I was feeling at that time. My brain was circling itself. I guess this is what stress's true form is. Sabrina and I apologized to each other for about a half an hour until our ride arrived. The three of us talking on the way there was nice, I'll admit. Even the general conversation at my aunt's house was very nice. Then the computer came around. Ok, in case I haven't outlined this enough recently... I fucking hate Dell. They are the worst PC company ever. I hope they go bankrupt for lack of sales from selling shitty machines! AARGH! I really wish I could afford making people computers, and never having to worry about tech supporting them every damn weekend of my already busy home life. Anyway, Dell sucks. Ok. I get the computer hooked up, started up. Guess what. THE GODDAMN MOUSE DIDN'T WORK! FUCK! Sigh... no other mouse seemed to work, so it's a driver issue, right? Sure enough, there are no drivers installed. Ok, don't panic. Add Hardware wizard will fix this in a jiffy. Hmm... what's this? No option to install a goddamn mouse? HOLY FUCK! Aargh! Ok, no problem still. I'll use the Win2000 machine's mouse drivers. What? I can't seem to find the proper drivers from it, and even if I did, you can't just "install"Ă.sys drivers, right? Apparently not, Microsoft, you fucking .inf whore. No worries, there has to be a driver disk shipped with the computer. Oh, wait. My bad again, there ISN'T ONE. Just a fake CD (a genius thought this one up) made of paper, saying "rofl u dont need drivrs adn windows reboot cds 'cause were dell and OMFG DUDE U GOTE A DELL ROFLMAYONNAISE!!!!11ONE," or something along those lines. Basically, unless I find some real drivers that I can actually install, I'm fucked, and I have to send back the computer to Dell. Fuck you, Dell. Fuck you with a big black rubber dildo. Ok, back to the problems in my actual life! After leaving my aunt's house as a failure, I had to break it to Sabrina that I'd be fixing my aunt's computer all of tomorrow morning and how sorry I was. She was so quiet, and she was so... stoic. I hate that because I know something is noticibly wrong with her, but I can't tell what it is. As if I didn't have enough stress this week. God, I can't fucking wait to graduate, and for her to graduate, and for us to be fucking happy.

Where to begin. Saturday morning, I woke up early and drove (yes, my mom asked me to drive) to my aunt's house to fix her computer, so I went, got my ancient serial port mouse to work on her computer. Ok, got on tech support, and after waiting for 25 minutes, I was on tech support call to some lady with a crazy accent (seems a standard among Dell tech support from what I've heard). Once she told me to swap the mouse and keyboard, they both died. Then I switched them back, and they worked. Her new mouse still won't work, but her old one is in perfect working order. Finished getting her set up just in time to leave and go out driving with Sabrina. That was fun, and I drove from Bellmar middle school to the Staples parking lot (a big step for me). As for the rest of the day... good lord, what a weird day. Sabrina kept itching her leg. I offered her some Calamine lotion, but she said she couldn't take it, she'd feel bad. She was obviously fighting to not itch her leg, because she knew I was worried about it and she wouldn't let me do anything for it. After the sixth or so small itch, I itched it, and yelled at her. She got terribly sad, and we sat there, quiet for about 3 hours. I apologized, but it did nothing. She was still upset. I screwed up hard, it seems. She really needs to be more laid back and accepting of my offers wĂen I try to do something for her. It's only been a year, right? Anyway, my sister fed us vegetables and salad for dinner. Sabrina felt better after we ate and after talking to my sister and Tom. I even ate some of her vegetables for her. That says a lot. Haha. Anyway, she stayed the night so she wouldn't be alone at home. I think it was just what I needed. It was nice to relax after one of the worst two days I've had in some time. It's so relaxing, being with her when she's happy. We had a nice night, and in the morning, around 11 AM, she left. I got ready and drove (once again, drove) to Chad's house, as he had invited me the Thursday before. Anthony and Chris (a friend I haven't seen since high school) were there, and they were all playing guitar. They played some, I played some, Anthony left. I got a quick lesson about Paganini's musical theory from Chad, then I talked to Chris for a while and drove home, got my stuff together (after eating a huge turkey/swiss sandwich) and then drove (i reiterate, drove) to Pittsburgh. Here I am, then. Got my new monitor set up on my server (//emokid/) and am about to complete my Visio project. All nighters are fun after a restless weekend.

The Visio project is done. I'll be burning my printouts to CD and turning them in. Freakin' yeah. Thanks, doubters and haters. I can even get two hours of sleep. In your face, all nighter. I love //emokid/'s new background. FLCL's Haruko charging with the guitar, looking like she wants to kill someone with the caption, "stay the f*** away from this computer." Heh, the new monitor is nice for it's low resolution.

Yesterday, I spent most of my time either doing nothing or installing and trying to run an IIS webserver. Both of which failed, but there is hope. As for the day, nothing too special happened that I can remember. Around 3 AM, Hobson invited me over for rice and we ate some while talking about everything from keyboards to J-Country music. Today in school, I was a bit tired, but nothing too bad. Hobson and I walked around the mall looking for something to go with his bread sandwich. He got some Starburst and some other thing, and we walked back to the food court. I saw her first. Sabrina was in the arcade. I knew it was her from the back, but seeing Cassie with her was confirmation for me to sneak up behind her and surprise her. Heh. We hung out in the arcade, played a round of DDR, then I went to my last class and did a router worksheet real quick. Afterward, I met up with Sabrina and her family again (I even got to scare her the second time. Hehe.). We ate at Hard Rock, then went on the Incline. Doing things in Pittsburgh sure is nice. Sitting on my ass all day has to be bad for me or something. The Port Authority guy who took our money looked like he was angry at his life or something. He had a creepy stare. Every time I looked back at him, he was looking at me. Meh. It was a nice day hanging out with them here in the city for once. I hope there will be more days like that. Such fun. I came back to the dorms just in time to drop the bomb and pass out. I woke up a few hours ago, watched the entire Salad Fingers flash series. I've fallen in love with Dabombinc.'s Lemmings remix. It's such a cute song. It's on Ocremix.org if you care to hear it for yourself. A lot of great music there.

Weird day. Woke up, went to school. During our lunch break, we went to Subway downtown. While walking on Smithfield, Jimm told us his story of forgetting his jacket on the railing while letting a random stranger named Denver Cooper "borrow" $50 to get back to his home in West Virginia. Strange enough, as soon as he finished the story, we saw this guy. Jimm and Randy confronted him about what had happened, and he gave them his information again. Everything from a Social Security number to addresses, cell phones. He was pretty scared. Randy was acting the hardass. He's more intimidating than I ever assumed him to be. Well, after that, we ate. Got back, and a few groups presented their Integration projects. Came back to the dorms, did nothing, sleptĂfrom 3 pm to 11 pm. It's 3 in the morning now, and I have nothing done. Yay. The air conditioning was turned on in the building yesterday, so it's freezing in here right now. I'll be huddled under a blanket in a minute, so I'll be ok. Anyway... meh. Sleepy time again. G'night.

We did our Microsoft Integration presentation today. We kicked some butt. I was going to wear a tie today, but I couldn't figure it out, and I got frustrated and gave up. In school itself, we didn't do much but some new work, and most people scrambled to get caught up on what they needed. During the presentations, I cut into John's part of it, but he seemed releaved that he only had to do the conclusion. I no longer have any problem with public speaking. I hadn't seen the slides before, and I had no idea what I was to present, but when they nodded me in, I kicked heiney. Anyway, I got back to the dorms, faught with //emokid/ for a while, then gave up on it once again. I fell asleep around 5 PM, woke up around 12:30 AM. I immediately got to work, though. Cool enough, right? I have just over half of my work finished, and the rest can be done with relative ease in class tomorrow. I hope my grades rebound once I turn all of this in. I'm feeling lucky. So lucky that I got to playing Stepmania. I was doing "Bag" when I thought... "surely, there must be some more Bagpipe Techno out there." Boy was I right. I found some music after a quick Google search. I want that CD now. I also procured a Sister Hazel CD recently, and I can't quit listening to that. This is a great time for music for me, it seems. Not a good time for sleep, though. About 7 hours of sleep, and now I'll be up until I'm guessing 1AM tomorrow. Let's hope I can keep awake all day tomorrow. I'll probably be staying at school for a while after the normal dismissal time of 2 PM. To those who read this, accept my advice. Please. I beg of you, do not procrastinate work until the last minute. It's in my nature to do so now. And it's killing me. I've been so stressed for the last 4 weeks because of this work that I never even ended up doing. Anyway... I'm going to attempt to take my laptop to class tomorrow. I hope to god that it actually works.

Ever feel like giving up on something? This statement is manyfold today. Whatever happens from here will happen. I doubt I'll have much of an impact on things.

"There were no screams. There was no time. The mountain called Monkey had spoken. There was only fire. Then nothing."

Boring day, really. Progressed further in my new classes. I spent the day either at school being bored, or back at the dorms sleeping or building the most expensive computer I could find. That was fun. I really need a new hard drive. I installed VB6 and I have 7 GB left on my main partition. I still have to install Visual Basic .NET tomorrow, and that's three bloody CDs. I need to clean up my hard drive, but I don't forsee that happening any time soon. I hate being poor. But as I keep repeating to myself, don't get worked up over such a pettty problem. If I did get the hard drive, I wouldn't properly appreciate what I've got anyway. And even, with my luck, it would break within the first week or so, thereby losing all my data. In the end, that's all I've got in the way of things I holĂ dear that aren't people. My comptuers are expendable, but the data on them isn't. Sure, it would be a huge inconvenience to lose them but it wouldn't be a sort of tragic thing. Now watch, having said that I'll lose everything. Sensing a bit of pessimism? Perhaps it's because it's 3:44 AM and I only got 3 hours of sleep today. I've got a sort of half-vomit prone heartburn going, and if I don't sleep soon, I'll have it all day. Fun, no? First thing this morning, I cut my shoulder on my desk while struggilng to get out of bed. Nothing like a flesh would first thing in the morning, right?

A pretty worthless day. After not getting much sleep, waking up and going to school was tough. But I did, and I got throgh the day. I'm already falling behind in class. I blame the virtual machines and the Professional Development "find the names and addresses of a bunch of people by Wednesday even though all such lists you would have arre back home." Meh. After I got home, Chris had all the furnature moved to the center of the room for the painters who were going to paint the piping for the new fire extinguishing system here at the dorms. The painters came and went. I moved everything back (except my dresser, it's too large for my pansy self). After moving everything back, I borrowed a stick of RAM back from Pat and put it in my computer. From there, I had to troubleshoot the secondary hard drive as well. For some reason, my operating systems don't pick it up, but the BIOS does. So, in the process of donig that, I gave up and fell asleep. So much for being productive at that point. I slept almost all day, then woke up, and fell asleep for the night. Felt like a very worthless day to me. I hate being worthless, but being worthless on days where I say I'm going to be productive (and even start being productive).