Pneity

The last few weeks weren't entirely busy, but I haven't been in much of a writin' mood. Sabrina somewhat officially moved out of the dorms, so she's home, and I get to see her every night now. I spend pretty much all my time not working with her and her sister. At night, I go home, and play Pokémon and download all the images on 4Chan /c/ whilst playing. Things are going well, and I've come to terms with my crappy job. The way I see it is, it sucks, but it could be worse. Though stressful at times, my job provides me an opportunity to surround myself with technology. Fun, I'd say. Pay sucks, though. I don't know what I was expecting, though. Driving is going well, everything on my Tracker is working right, except the other night the key bent too much, I guess. It stopped working, so no I have to wiggle the wheel to get it to work. Heh. Now with that working, I have a chance to save some money. Or do I? I want a Cobalt Flux pad, because The Maxx's pads suck. I went there the day before my birthday, and failed pretty much everything. After that, I'd like a computer. And on top of that, I am planning to go to Eyes On Final Fantasy's meetup (CST '06), and before that Sabrina and I decided to go to the beach next month. Heh. Whatever, I guess. I'll have fun with it, I guess. I've been out of touch with friends lately, and I hardly care. I'm happy, strangely enough. Spring is coming, but Winter is wearing on my mind. Tekkoshocon is coming up at the end of this month. Sabrina is going as Chi from Chobits, as I may have already mentioned. She got the material and patterns for her costume today. I'm so excited about it. Heh. Fun stuff. Not much else happening, really. I just had my 20th birthday a few days ago. Sabrina made me a cake, and it was seriously delicious. Most delicious yellow/chocolate iced cake I've ever had. Omfg. We'll be having cake with my family tomorrow. I guess I'm too tough to get ahold of these days with going to Sabrina's so much. Heh. I don't mind. In about a week, it'll be a year of blogging (too bad I never write in it). And in two weeks, Spring officially starts. It won't come soon enough, let alone the warm weather. Though, it's supposed to be warm Friday. Omfg! G'night.

Monday blew hard. Work felt like two days worth. Mainly because I had nothing to do all day. One of those really guilty not busy days. But in the end, Sabrina came over and we listened to music all night. She even wore a skirt since I was celebrating my birthday (that's all I wanted from her to begin with, really). She's so awesome. We even ate cake, good cake. We had a nice night at my house. She left that night, and I played Pokémon LeafGreen the rest of the night. I'm addictted to it again. Heh. Today, I didn't do much of anything in the morning except enjoy the nice weather (probably about 55° out!). I went to afternoon shift today, and when I got there my bosses weren't there, so I had an easy few hours before they got back from UParc. Even when they got back, they did their own thing, then went home. I had a few more hours alone. I basically listened to music and read bash.org. I like nights like that. But lately, I don't know if I've earned something like that. I stopped by Sabrina's after work (I usually do after afternoon shift), but she was asleep. I woke her up and we spent a few minutes together. I got home and proceeded to get comfy and play some more Pokémon. Lawl. I've been doing that since. It's 4 am now. I'm ready to get some sleep, so I've set my anime slideshow going (9100+ images now, that's about 1.4 GB of still images, mostly jpgs and pngs). Tomorrow, have the day off. I look forward to finding my checkbook, and paying some student loans. My life is so full. Har har. Oh, well. Maybe someday, I'll know what the term "casual spending" is.

Not an interesting day. I was up late last night, and this morning came too early. At 11 AM, at that. What a bummer. But I woke up and played Pokemon for 6 hours straight, amounting to about 20-30 hours of gameplay. Pwnt. After accomplshing nothing, I showered and waited for Sabrina to call, which she eventually did, and I went to her house. They were watching the Harry Potter movie that was recenetly released on DVD when I got there. I hate Harry Potter. It's personal. Yes, I look like him. Aargh. Jerk. Anyway, after that, we ate some Wendy's that her mom brought home and then we fell asleep for about a half hour before I said goodbye for the night. I got home, ate some Oreos, and surfed the laggy internet for a while. Now, it's late again, and I need to get some sleep. G'night.

Ok, I give up. It's time to crack down on the evil of the world. You know what I'm talking about. People who don't know how to use computers on the internet. I had a lot of stupid questions working tech support today. What a miserable job. Not only was I furiously busy today, but when Karl finally came in, I was loaded down with two big projects at the same damn time. Plus side, I got to go home. Beautiful day, I drove home with the windows down. That owned. I need more of that, and soon, I can. I got home, blasted some music and cleaned my room. I think it's refreshing to clean things up. It ended up nice. Sabrina came over, and we ate some lettuce and greer. Omfg, I loved it. Sabrina and I had a nice night, but I think I'm farther than ever in convincing Sabrina that she should try living out my obsessions. It put me in a bad mood while she was here, even. Isn't that pathetic? Oh, well. I'm tired, too. Need some sleep. Maybe tomorow won't suck. The weather is supposed to be nice again. Spring, I can finally sense you on the horizon. But, March is a very, very long month. I needn't remind myself that.

Unusual weekend. But first, Friday. Work sucked. What a miserable week it was. Work itself wasn't too bad. Not a busy day, and we cleaned one of the unused crappy offices. We talked while we did it and my coworkers really have a habit of making me feel like I'm retarded. I'm beginning to think that everyone thinks I'm completely incapable at every day life. Anyway, after work, I relaxed at home for a while before Sabrina called and I went over to her house for the night. We sat in her kitchen and talked with her family for a while, then fell asleep early. Some nap that turned out to be. We went to sleep at 9:30 PM. We woke up early, and got to pick her sister up from the school's musical practice. We spent the morning thinking of what to do before we figured out we should go to the mall. We picked up Cassie's boyfriend Jeremy, then headed out to the mall. Humorous part about his presence was his child care project that we had to bring with us. A baby doll that crys every few hours. We had many jokes at it's expence, and it even go to wear my sunglasses most of the day. We ate some Taco Bell, then headed to the mall for some DDR. Jeremy tried it out, and really liked it. I owned up at it, since Century III's machine doesn't actually suck. After that, we hung out for a while longer, then found a DDR machine out in the open of the mall, and the unusual part of that was the 10 year old boy owning up the machine. He AA'd some light songs, and was playing some standard songs. We walked up to wait to play, and watched him own up some guys about twice as old as him. He wasn't going to stop any time soon, so I had to play next to him, which sort of sucked since I didn't want to make him look bad by playing heavy right next to him. He didn't deserve to look bad. But it was still fun. I almost got us all killed driving away from the mall, but when we got back to Sabrina's house, we listened to Johnny Cash and other assorted music while looking at my anime image collection. We then watched Anchorman, since Jeremy had never seen it. I love that movie. Then, we took Jeremy home and went to sleep. But the best part of the day was Sabrina's skirt. In celebration of the beautiful day, sĂe agreed to wear one. I love that girl so much. I got pretty emo when she took it off that night to put on some sleeping clothes. Heh, I'm so awful. But we slept, woke up the next morning, spent some time together, then I headed out to home. I had made plans with Chad to go see him at his band practice. So, he picked me up and we went to the middle of nowhere to his practice. It got cold fast when we got there. And I was a bit out of place, but had fun talking to his new friends about music and listening to them do their thing. I hope they turn out ok. I got invited to a ghost hunt on Wedesday, but I have to wake up early the next morning, so I'm not sure if I'm ok with that. I'll figure something out. My beach vacation got pushed back a few weeks, but that'll end up better, I hope. We needed to avoid conflicts with Tekkoshocon and Easter. Feh. I can't wait for April. Heh. I can feel my attitude changing, as I can feel the weather changing. This last week has been beautiful temperature wise. Supposed to be cold next week again, but not much longer now...

Bah, it's freaking cold again. But yesterday sucked. Beautiful weather... err... beautiful temperature, I should say. Sun didn't shine, and it poured rain most of the day. Work sucked. Busy, busy morning. I was wrong a lot, and I didn't really get much done. As expected. I even got sick at work. I spent about 15 of the most uncomfortable minutes of my life on the toilet at work. I wish things were nice there. Oh, well, I guess. Nothing I can do. I'll just keep waiting, and hoping something amazing happens. The night was nice. I went to Sabrina's house, and we spent time together. She was on a sugar high most of the night because she ate a bunch of strawberries with sugar. She's so funny, and adorable. I love her so much. We watched a few episodes of Band of Brothers, then I went home. I wasn't up as late as usual, even knowing I would get to sleep in. I guess the internet just sucks when you're on dialup. I got bored, and my contacts dried out quick. Another reason I can't wait for summer. Y'all 're gits.

This week wasn't too bad, but I continued my downward spiral of doing nothing right. More people believing me to be completely retarded. Which perhaps they're right. I don't know. Oh, well. Work sucked because of this, but there wasn't really anything that bad. Kyle, my coworker went on Spring Break to Florida. Lucky him. But Tekkoshocon draws nearer, as does Easter and our vacation. Thursday, Sabrina took a day off of school and work, but she got sick. I had a stressful day because I'm an idiot, and overlooked something and had to stay at work a few hours over. I got sick Friday, at work. Perhaps from hanging out with Sabrina, I don't know. But I changed my weekend plans, bought cold medicine, tissues, and other things that help a cold, and headed over to Sabrina's to spend the weekend and get to feeling better with her. We ended up not leaving the bed all weekend. Our friend Courtney brought over her tape of Pretear, and we watched it almost all day Saturday. It was a nice weekend, would have been wonderful if I weren't mind numbingly sick. I guess that's really all for now.

Monday was the worst day of work I've had yet. All because of this damned firewall. I'd like to just say right now that Watchguard makes some of the worst products in the world and their website is laid out so poorly I don't even know why they have one. But their live support is great. Too bad my boss can't support me on the damn thing. So I guess I'm left to set it up all alone. With no help. Fuck. I don't know why he refuses to just show me how to do it so I don't have a million questions. Bah. Other than work sucking, lifeĂis pretty good. It won't warm up, even though Spring has begun officially. In fact today, I saw hail and snow. Eew. Downloaded some Stepmania themes today, on my dialup. Awesome. Meh. I can't wait for next Friday... Tekkoshocon. It can't come soon enough.

Wednesday, not much to say. Quiet day of work, and I was actually shown how to use the Firewall!!1one_omfg That was nice. After work, I went to Sabrina's and we started to watch Mulan, but had to pick Cassie up from her school musical practice. Unfortunately, we got to the school at 9, and ended up waiting until 11. Yes, 11 at night. And I woke up early this morning for the early shift at work. That wasn't fun. In fact, I was entirely too tired. Once at work, I was fine, though. Work went smooth, quiet, but I slacked my filing responsibilities, and now, I still need to do those. Ick. Work started slow and busy, got quick and lazy. Delicious. The drive home was a bit scary since I was so tired, but I got home. Played a bit of Stepmania after vegging in the chair upstairs. Played Quasar at half speed using the new themes I downloaded. They have some nice tools in them. If only Stepmania normally had those by default. Been reading a lot about the Windows Vista delays lately. It'll never be released, and from the feature list, I don't see myself using it. Went to Sabrina's tonight, but I'm a noob. I listened to her talk on the phone to her cousin for a while, which I didn't mind at all. Just made me really tired. Then I slept the rest of the night. While she ran around and got her car troubles sorted out. Now, I'm home eating a Caramello, 4Chan/c/ing, and writing. I'm sooo tired, though. Going to sleep early tonight. G'night.

Friday is one of those days that sort of change everything. Not a good day, either. It was more of a slap in the face to all the crappy feelings I've aleady had recently. That worthless feeling I wrote about days ago. Well, it climaxed, or whatever feelings do this weekend. Friday, I was sat down and told how much I suck at what I do at work. But for some reason, I'm still there. Shame. I fought through what well may have been, looking back, the worst day there yet. Monday was nothing. After all was said and done, I had to stay late because there was a problem in my last half hour of my scheduled time that needed my attention. It was probably my fault, or somee things in the whole process may have been my fault, I'm sure of it. Which is why I'm terrified to go to work tomorrow. These feelings have festered in me all weekend, and tonight, I"m at the bottom of the world. The weekend itself was nice. I fought my sinus infection Friday night, stayed at Sabrina's house. We fell asleep early, woke up early. That morning was slow, and a bit boring, but they all got ready to go to the musical, and I got ready to go home and sleep a bunch more. Which I did. Played some Pokemon and Stepmania, wached a tornado movie with my dad, then went to sleep. I woke up early this morning to go shopping for my cosplay outfit with Sabrina in Uniontown. It was a very fun day, if tough since I couldn't really find anything I wanted. I suck at shopping for clothes. We stopped at her dad's on the way home, since we passed by anyway, and picked up his car, since Sabrina's is still fux0r3d. Lawl. We had a little high speed chase on some backroads on the way back to her house, but I survivved in my piddley Tracker. Somehow. We watched some Harry Potter, then picked her sister up from the Musical cast party early. Something upset her, but she wouldn't say what. High school... I wish my problems were like that again. It didn't hurt me near as much as things do now. I was impervious to everything back then. But now, I've realized that my life will always be one of making do with what I've got, not attaining myĂgoals and actually doing the things that make me happy. Compromise is my way of life now, I see. I was thinking about that a lot on my way home from Sabrina's, while I stopped at Walmart to get some supplies for the week. I got home, ate some Life cereal, then went downstairs to get some sleep. Wouldn't you know, I turn on my big light, and what do I see on the floor by my bed? A huge spider. I get really super pissed off RealUltimatePower style, and pick up an old shoe, and hammer down upon that miserable thing. I should have checked the shoe before using it, but I wasn't really concerned with that. So I got a spray of old, dry, dirt all over my face, and the floor. And I guess I hit the spider too hard, because it flew pretty far after it got hit. Killed it, though. I freaking hate those big spiders I get in my room. 'Tis the season. Spring. I'm getting all of the bad things that come with it (bugs, false hopes), and none of the good things (good weather, pretty clothes, good attitudes). Figures. Oh, well. For now, I'll just get some sleep. My face hurts so bad, and I just know I want tomorrow to come as soon as it can. Actually, scratch that. I hope I don't wake up. I'd give my left nut for a happy, friendly work environment. The joke's on me.

Monday sucked. I'll come right out and say that. I got yelled at at work, much too abruptly. I hate it there. Today, I didn't even want to go. I almost didn't. And I know if they didn't need me so much, I'd be canned already. How depressing. But, fortunately, I got to work pretty much alone tonight. My boss was there about 15 minutes and he actually treated me like a freaking human. Whoa. Leaving work was an experience. Washington is a quiet place at night. Compounded with me getting better from my sinus infection, I was surprised. I could smell the rain. It's a glorious smell that you don't get the chance to smell in the Winter. It put me in an exceptional mood. I like Spring/Summer rains. Came home after work, ate a huge hamburger made by my dad, then played Pokémon for a few hours. Now, it's bedtime. Tomorrow, I have the day off. Two more days until Tekkoshocon.

Wednesday was a nice day off. Spent the morning vegging, then Sabrina came over. Not too much there, just a lot of music and togetherness. And some weird potato-cheese-hotdog deal my dad concocted. The whole day, I dreaded working Thursday, which, much to my surprise, wasn't that bad. I kept busy all day, so things went along productively. Until the end of the day. Instead of a lunch break, I had to go on site to fix a printer. Now, if you didn't already know this, I hate printers. No manufacturer has ever made a good printer. That's not a matter of opinion, either. Anyway, I said I couldn't fix it (and at the time, I believed I couldn't), but then I was sent back to actually try, so I did. And I got it working. Yay me. I felt good, especially when my boss told me "good job." Finally, I didn't screw something up royally. Anyway... freaking BEAUTIFUL day. I couldn't have been happer leaving work. Went home, got a quick bite to eat, then stopped at Sabrina's. She showed me her costume for Tekkoshocon, as it was mostly finished, and I was overwhelmed. I wish dressing like that were acceptable in every day life. Holy freaking crap. After the night, I got home and made some small preparations for the following day. Friday, I took off of work, Tekkoshocon's big day! Woo! The festivities were many, and I was just overwhelmed. That place is like my heaven. Think: Sabrina, and other cool people who are good, real friends; anime discussions; video games (like crazy) (mostly DDR and keyboarding games, lol); AMVs; girls in dresses; some of the most awesome people I've ever met in my life. How perfect was the day? I can't explain, really. My fingers can't withstand the detail I could go into. Anyway, my old friend Mike is doing well, and it was great to see him again. He is a true friend to me, which is so odd seeing how we are around each other. Heh. I played DDR until my legs gave out, passed Tsugaru normal for the first time ever. I finally understand, and can do, crossovers. On top of that, I played Soul Calibur III a few times, but the biggest surprise was Jesus and me playing so much Typing of the Dead. That game is amazing. And I pwn at it. How handy, eh? Leaving made me pretty emo. I hated to leave, but it was time. We were all tired. After getting trapped by traffic for... ever, we made it home, despite the intense rain. I drove to Sabrina's dad's house once we got settled for a while, so she could return his car to him after borrowing it this week. Now, I'm nestled in for the night, a bit early, waiting and being excited for tomorrow at Tekkoshocon. I have a feeling that the fun ain't over yet. G'night.